Tuesday, May 26, 2009


Let me tell you the secret-truth - hush!!!!
I am a Liar!
Yes, I’m a Liar, a Big Liar... And I’m not ashamed of it.
I know that Lying is regarded - a very bad-habit.. Actually much worse.. lying is considered adharma.
"திருடாதே , பொய்சொல்லாதே , பிச்சைஎடுக்கதே" - three things my dad always advised. It is supposed to be that Important.. the Truth.
[Translates to.. “Don’t steal, Don’t lie, Don’t beg”]
True, that Valluvar argues that, lying can be good as long as…link [291, Vaaimai]
But lets not talk about that… this is not what is worrying me right now..

Now, Why do we lie??
Sometimes, we lie to simplify the situation..(or to avoid further unnecessary questions)
Sometimes, we lie for their own protection.. (The case of kids when they ask about God/terrorism/evolution/sex..)
[Let’s ignore folks who lie for our own selfish good.. Yeah.. I have seen these guys too]
And Yes, I lie for these reasons...and as long as I know what I do, I don’t have any guilt..

But, there are times, I feel guilty..
Sometimes I lie to…….. Myself.
Yes, I lie to me..
I fool myself for my own comfort..
I dupe myself to believe a fake-reality..
Whenever, Its time to ask tough questions,
or when the answers are unknown
or worse - when the answers are bitter or tough to digest,
I deceive myself.... with something like “Time will answer”… “I’ll know when I’m supposed to know”… “That’s not important”… “I don’t have time for that right now”… “It’ll all be OK in the end”
I have always sought comfort under the blanket of my own lies.
Now, that I have realized the problem of bad-lie, I’m trying consciously not to fool myself anymore.
The going hasn't been easy..When I try to face the raw truth, sometimes I get overwhelmed, I get low, I get dispirited... but, once I get over this and succeed, I'll be a huge leap closer to true-congruent living. Lets see how long I take to reach there!

Have you Quit lying to yourself? Let me know how!
Drop a line at vinbot [at] gmail [dot] com.
Until next time, Quit lying!!!
-Vinodh

Saturday, May 23, 2009

Sunrise  Albion Road Painting  - Sunrise  Albion Road Fine Art PrintWell.. Saturdays don't get any better than this..

Woke up @ 5 am.. The day started with a Chilly ride to Ananya. I love these long-morning rides. The Orange Sunrise in Airport road is an incentive to get up early on a Saturday Mrng.. The roadside Chai seems to get better every week.

It was a tapering run just before the next-week's race. The weather was perfect for a great destressing run.. Played a bit of Ultimate-frisbee next.. Only 2-3 players each side, a small play area.. but it was great fun..

Ananya is a Magical place, and has so much to offer.. Today, It taught us farming. George was so enthusiastic to share with us the process/techniques. [Start->Programs->MicroSoft Farming??? - No] We ploughed the field, planted the Ginger/Bean sprouts, manured and watered them. This is the closest, I'll ever get to real-working for a while. Totally fulfilling experience. [I'm sure Sucksman will have something to say here..]


Asha Farming Sangha: Sriram (Senior scientist), Me, (The real farmer), Narmada (Officer on Spl.duty), Manjula (Senior Vice President), Banna (Apprentice), Sucksman Balu(PR)

It was only 9 am, and I was already having so much fun..

Shivamma's kitchen beckoned us. Idlies floating in Sambhar and hot masala tea.. Wow.. We discussed various things over breakfast. The group is getting crazier by the day. We'll take over Bangalore one day.
Tidbits: I'm the popular choice for the next Sempai (First student in Karate Dojo)..
Apparently, I am always "on a high" and I can be drugged even without drugs.

We parted our ways by 10... Some cycled back.. I rode back.. Some others decided to walk back..

On the way back, I stopped at the usual cane-juice place.. Every week I see the HAL Aerospace museum across wanted to visit one day.. And Today was the day..

The Museum had a lot of interesting exhibits.. I got to see our own MiG-21's, Jaguars, Light Combat Aircrafts. But no Sukhois or F16s..

MiG21
A train of enthu-school kids were gazing at the exhibits in astonishment.. Wow.. Kids and their fascinating questions.. I couldn't answer them all but did learn from them. I wonder if I still have the curiosity to know about new things..

Headed back home around noon. Showered and napped.. The whole day, I was unplugged from the Web - thanks to the power cut. Spent the afternoon with Atlas Shrugged.

Outlined and developed a short-story.. I do a lot of writing these days and I love it.. Should organize a bit more and channelize the energy..

Went out for the usual Saturday-evening stroll. The sight of kids playing is blissful.. I sometimes play with them - until their parents comeback.. [Whats the deal with them? Y wont they let the kids play with me??]

Calvin & Hobbes and Sweet-corn - Great combination for a wonderful Saturday evening.

8 pm and its time for IPL-semi finals: Bangalore Vs Chennai. 3 hrs of solid entertainment and Bangalore has just won as I write this..

And.. thats an Awesome Saturday..

Hello Super Sunday... What do you have in store??

Friday, May 22, 2009

Life, at times can be unjust.
when you bite the dust,
in everything - you mistrust.

It may look like a scary brawl,
But these are the times to stand tall
and wither it all like the great Wall.

Life is too short to worry,
It'll all be over in a hurry!!!

--Vinodh

Wednesday, May 20, 2009

Enough...

http://farm1.static.flickr.com/63/161921588_69a42918e1.jpg
Oh Yeah, things do go wrong
no matter you're how strong

Just when you are out of town,
the castle comes crashing down.

What do you do, hitting zero-ground,
And there is no turning around?

When the Truth turns out to be a lie,
when you lose the sole guiding eye?

Love and Care ??
They're mere pretense, I swear!!

There is nothing to confess,
I am just helpless.

Life is a bluff.
'n I have had enough..

--Vinodh

Saturday, May 09, 2009

I'm not alone


It was a long drive yesterday to the farm, and I had a very interesting discussion with the Sensei.. I gotta understand that I'm not alone in the quest for the ultimate truth!! Everyone has their own way... and as Vivekananda says, the answer lies within!


So Vinodh, Which college are you in?
WOWWWW!!! Perfect 'cherry topping' to an amazing day!!

The day started with me acting as 'Assistant-sub-coach' to run with the Ananya kids. Practiced karate after a good long run.. Hmm.. Someday I'll blow that candle with a punch!!!

It was very kind of Sensei invite me to her farm 'n I yes'd in. Met a few bike enthusiasts. Biking looks interesting.. Its kinda less tiring than running, you get to ride longer and promises to be as fun.. That'd take me a step closer to a triathlon.

The farm was huge. Lotsa trees.. loved those mangoes.. broke a mango with a Shuto-Uchi..well, almost :) .. Had an amazing time under the trees..

The 'Icing on the cake' was while walking back to the car.. This new friend asked me,
"So, Vinodh, which college are you in?"
Well, being the narcissist that I am, I know I workout hard to get fitter and be in shape.. And still, Wow!!! I was flattered!!

Sealed off the day with gr8 Konkani food @ Kanua..

-Vinodh