Voices from Within

We met not - a week ago!
I now sleep not - you know!

Never felt like this, ever before
I am not myself, anymore.

You eye looks brighter than the sun.
Is heaven undone?

Did you glide from the top up-above.
Oh my God... - Is this love?

Trying my hand at tamil poetry... not bad huh?

அவளை பார்த்தேன்;
என்னை மறந்தேன்..
காற்றில் மிதந்தேன்
எதற்கும் துணிந்தேன்..
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நிஜமா நிழலா - இது
சரியா தவறா - நான் என்னை இழந்தது
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நான் உண்ண மறந்தேன் - உனக்கு உண்மை புரியலையா
நான் உறக்கம் இழக்கிறேன் - உமக்கு இறக்கம் இல்லையா
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கண்களை மூடிநீன் - இருட்டில் நீ
பெண்களை பார்கிறேன் - அதிலும் நீ.
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Despite a late friday-nite, I got up early for the run. All that head-banging previous nite, made me dizzy. I could not afford to miss this run - this was the last big run b4 the marathon. Munched-on some nuts and dates and got out for a freezing ride. The road-side Chai helped a bit...

It was a usual run.. Tired and hungry - i returned... played a bit of volley-ball and settled down for breakfast.. Then I think, i met someone really spl.. Interacted with kids, played with them, danced after a long time... had a lot of fun - named a cat - "Nayanthara".. and when I came home, I was happy and restless..

Thanks Veronica! You decided to die and helped me live!

This is the write up in my Asha runner page.. posting it here for the regulars ;)
http://ashanet.org/bangalore/marathon/runners/vinodh.html
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5:30am. 15C in Blore.
Door: knock knock..
Me: who is it?
Door: Me? Buddybot 1.0
Me: Wait a minute.. I'll change for the Run..
During the run..
Me: Conversation mode… ON.
Buddybot: So, dude how did u start running?
Me: Fitness. To be in shape.
Buddybot: Funny humans. You eat more. Then burn-out the "batteries" calling it fitness.. Watta waste!!!
Me: Hang on! There is more to it. I eat more coz, I enjoy it. But can you?
Buddybot: Why do you hav 2 enjoy? And you complain next day to me that - u hav over eaten!!
Me: I relish the moment. I live. That improves my endurance.
Buddybot: Come on dude.. I can run all day, as long as the Sun is out.
Me: Dumbo.. I can run in the night as well..
Buddybot: During the night, I work more efficiently! My cooling functions can be turned off and I can run whole night until the sun is out the next mrng.
Me: Wait. There is more to it. I meet a lotta ppl in the run. I socialize. I can impress ppl with my fitness.
Buddybot: I socialize too.. I just upated my MySpace page and I can access orkut now, while running. Remember? How we met? In Orkut.
Me: That fate full day..Who would forget.
Buddybot: "You know. Ur strange running habit caught my "eye". That was why, I wanted to know you better. I always wanted to know. Why you run? This chilly morning. With these crazy crazy. I come to know that you humans are not comfortable in this temp.?"
Me: You know what? There is a greater cause?
Buddybot: What? Global warming? That’s TOP on my list of human problems.
Me: No. I run to fundraise for underprevilaged children. You know, how I complain about these traffic jams and stuff. These kids don’t even get proper education, 3 meals a day.
Buddybot: I don’t understand. How is your running going to help these kiddos?
Me: That’s complex. You wouldn’t understand.
Buddybot: I have a AMD Shangai,GPS, 3G powered only by SUN and It doesn’t get any more complex than this? Just explain.
Me: See, I started selfishly just to keep fit and to spend my weekends away from the bed. But when I saw these kids - I decided. To gift them their childhood.
Buddybot: To gift them their childhood????? I don’t understand. "childhood" is not available in ebay or Amazon!
Me: I wish it was only that simple. The sense of satisfaction that you get when they thank you…. Its out of the world.
Buddybot: Beep.. Beep.. Rebooting... You entered the emotional zone 0.1, which is still in beta...
Only we can understand. Only we can help. Lets gift them their childhood. Pls donate.
More about Asha's projects: http://www.ashanet.org/bangalore/marathon/projects.htm

Take a look at the list...

Over sleep
laziness
procrastination
gluttony
obesity
Wrath
Do you really have to work hard to do any-of the above stuff??

Now.. how abt this one?
Advice
criticism
discouragement
temptation
depression
Lust

Do you have to pay for any of these??

Lets think of getting any of the following done...

Be fit and healthy
Be confident
Be conscious
Be courageous
Resist temptation

- Eazy huh?

I am tempted to conclude that Nothing worthy is free and anything free is unworthy.

Looks like, the world around is so spoilt that the considered "normalcy" seems to fall way into the negative.
Laziness is acceptable...
Over eating is not bad..
Procastrination is tolerable...
Health consciousness is extremity..
Dieting is "to be made fun of"...

World: Grow up!! Higher consciousness is bliss..

I wish, i act on all my thoughts..